Lilith Asteroid - Womb, Blood, Bone

Today is the glorious full moon in Leo. This time of year in the North, the Full Moon rides high in the sky, illuminating the snow-covered land with the reflected light of the Aquarius Sun.

In Dark Goddess Astrology I check your chart for three avatars of Lilith: The Lilith Star (Algol), Black Moon Lilith, and Lilith Asteroid. All the Liliths in astrology stand for aspects of Feminine Power. When you have a Dark Goddess Astrology session, you learn double edged truth about your own feminine power: where you are wounded, blocked, or in denial, and how you heal, magnify, and express your divine feminine self. Over the next three days, I’ll write about each of these Liliths.

Today, I start with Lilith asteroid because this is the Lilith we know most intimately in the body.

She stands for the Feminine Power you carry in your body – Womb, Blood, and Bone.

Hers is the power of sexuality, of orgasm, of conception and birth, of nourishment, of communion with the earth.

Born into patriarchy, you do not learn about your power and how to live it.

Instead you grow up feeling this Lilith as the Feminine Wound – or as Anne Wilson Schaef describes it, “the original sin of being born female.” This wound may be unnamed, unconscious, and unrecognized, but you can see how it influences your life, and the lives of women and girls all over the world.

Even in an enlightened, post-feminist society, a female learns to measure her value according to male standards and expectations. Her worth is determined by her attractiveness, her fertility, her availability, and her obedience to the male, or the system built by and for men. To achieve, she has to play by their rules, and contend with their belief that they are entitled to her work, her attention, her body.

How does this look in your everyday life?

You bite back your feelings and censor your words so that the people, especially the men, in your life feel comfortable.
You downplay your needs and desires – for time alone, for rest, for pleasure – because you are so busy taking care of everyone else.
You compare yourself to impossible standards of beauty and sex appeal and feel ashamed when you don’t measure up.
In bed, you put your partner’s pleasure first, to the point you don’t express your desires, or tell your partner something hurts because you don’t want to ruin the moment for him.
When you do express your desire and sensuality, you risk being slut-shamed, whether you are 14 or 74.

I could keep going with this. Through every area of your life, you are contending consciously or unconsciously with the feminine wound.

It’s not your fault. Compliance has become encoded in your survival patterns. Your mother taught you how to be this way for your safety in a world that could kill you if you disobey.

Starhawk says it clearly in her book Truth or Dare: Encounters with Power, Authority, and Mystery –

“But obedience comes at a cost: the erosion of the self. When we comply with systems that disregard and diminish us, we betray our own integrity. Deep down, we feel that loss, and so we cannot comply all the time and truly live. At times, we must rebel."

Lilith asteroid shows you how to stand up and rebel.

The way to heal the disowned feminine within is to OWN HER.

Acknowledge that your female body carries power – sexual, erotic, creative, sovereign power. Feel your power rise to your womb, heart, voice. Let this be your practice: spend a little more time each day acknowledging your embodied feminine power, and let this power guide your decisions and actions.

In this era of backlash toward the feminine, that would jerk us back into the Dark Ages, this awareness feels both dangerous and necessary.

The Full Moon chart today places Lilith asteroid conjunct Pallas Athene, the goddess of intellectual power and strength. They square Black Moon Lilith and Eris. This calls for action – your personal rebellion, a dance of chaos and discord.

When women rise together, it upsets the world order. And we save the world-- with magic.

Get to know the Liliths in your chart. Where are the Lilith resources you were born with? Where are the wounds separating you from your power? What is Lilith calling you to be now?